Strength-Ability...

Psalm 28:7
The LORD is my strength and my shield; my heart trusts in him, and I am helped. My heart leaps for joy and I will give thanks to him in song.

I sometimes wonder what really ignites my inner strength... sometimes there are some days I feel as though I just don’t have that one more push and or fight in me... sometimes there are days that I feel like life is sucking me bone dry but in those days I always know that giving up is not an option, (don’t worry saints I pray-prayer is my lively regiment) but in this note I just want to be transparent, I can tell you that some of the things that keep me going in life is believing in my heart that the more tougher it gets the more closer I am to God (as crazy as it sounds) for instance, my writing seasons are usually at an all-time peak between the months of January through July and for some reason these have always been my most productive months for the last 5 years and  this time around I am working on my 3rd  fiction novel which is very deep, very dear and very emotional to me however I am excited very much about it as I connect with my characters my debilitating head-aches came to visit me, now mind you they usually happen once every other year in the fall so this time it’s an early arrival, they are enough to become a show stopper in my moments work but I realized something this time around... just because life wants to stop you dead in your tracks with its spontaneous inconveniences doesn't mean you have to stop for life to have its way, now I am to the point where I am just going to work around it, through it and past it to finish what I started because like all else...this too shall come to pass, sure it feels awkward trailing an oxygen tank around and constantly relying on it to alleviate my head aches but it could be worse, my condition is not chronic, it’s always temporary and I thank God that I am very much alive, I write this candidly to you so that you understand that, “life happens” and just because “life happens” doesn't mean YOU have to stop happening, there will always be a light at the end of the tunnel the question is, “how long is your tunnel?” ;-) now on another note bad life moments make for future memory giggles and besides its always a time to draw closer to God. Be Blessed! XOXOXO


“Strength is the ability to dig deep down inside to the core of your body and  use all the resources (Holy Spirit) from within to survive one more try, one more hope, one more prayer and one more faith to keep living.”  -Memory Bengesa